Trapped

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you are STUCKED in a moment...?
Just like in every stories written by some famous writers and video games played by millions of us:
* We did everything that needs to be done.
* We summoned all our strength to get pass through that phase.
* We read every chapter to better understand the scenario.
* And even ask for help... (Walk-throughs & all that)

BUT still...
We are stucked in that place, in that MOMENT! In that phase of our life.
STUCKED... like an insects trapped in a web.
SUNKED... like a Ship defeated by a horrible sea storm.
TRAPPED... like a Quicksand, (the more we fight it, the more it push us deeper into the ground. )

We're Stucked in a maze.
We're trapped in a quicksand.
Like a Deja Vu that keeps repeating right before our very eyes
Wondering when this starting' over ends
....or begin?

MAYBE...
GOD wants us to LEARN something in our life.
LEARN, experience and discover the facts about this so-called life to make us much stronger.
MAYBE...
He wants us to taste the bitterness of all this tears, so we can taste the sweetest smile that comes after that.
MAYBE...
He wants us to ride the bumpiest ride of our life, so we can sail the smoothest sea to success that he had laid upon us.
MAYBE...
He wants us to experience defeat, sadness and hatred over & over AGAIN to make us see the true meaning of what LOVE, HAPPINESS, SUCCESS and CONTENTMENT is. To get in-touch with our true self
'Cause... That’s how life really is.
NO Shortcuts.
No Walkthroughs.
No Manuals.

If only...
I have manuals in life, maybe then, I wouldn't get lost.
If only...
I can foresee what’s ahead of me. Maybe then, I wouldn't be scared anymore.
If only...
I have walk-through in life. Maybe then, one wouldn't give up.
If only...
I can rewind everything back; I would be answering "YES" to all phone calls. =)
NO HESITATIONS
If only...
I can fast forward life, I would've done it three times, to surpass all this.



BUT
How I wish... Life is that easy.
How I wish... Love is that sweet.
How I wish... Dreams are one step away.
How I wish... this is just a dream!
BUT, Its NOT.

I know...
Its time to live in the present.
I Know...
Its time to put the past behind me, to unveil the future that’s ahead of me
I Know...
Its time to shine.
But...
The BIG Question is...
...HOW? =(

In The Corner Of My Mind

How I Wish Life Can Be As Simple As Before.
Where The Only Problems We Have To Solve Is
- What Is The Product of 2 x 2?
- Spell Dog?
- Define Love?
Blah Blah Blah

And, The Only Decisions We Have To Make is
- Which Shoes To Wear?
- Which Bag To Use?
- Ponytails Or Headbands?
Etc. Etc. Etc.

Those Times…
When We Would Always Play Chinese-Garter During Break-Time.
When We Would Just Wait For Our Packed-Lunch To Be Delivered.
When We Would Just Wait For School Bells To Ring Telling Us That It’s Time To Go Home.
When The Only Things We Are Concerned Of Is Getting Good Grades, Doing Homework, And Sleeping Early. No More! No Less!
When We Could Just Let Our Parents Do The Thinking For Us.

Those Few Things We Mastered Well Enough That Became Our Daily Routine As A Child, As A Student And As A Daughter.
A Routine We Once Hated And Now, I Longed For.

Unlike Before,

NOW… Life Has Been So Complicated.

All Of A Sudden Numerous Questions Have To Be Answered With Limited Time. *Clock-ticking*
(And Mind You It’s Not About Math And Spelling Anymore.)
All Of A Sudden Problems Sprouts Like Mushrooms During Summer Time That Needs To Be Solved.
(And I Hate It!)
All Of A Sudden There Are Lots Of Decisions To Be Made With So Many Options To Choose From And Lots Of Ideas To Consider.

Questions… Not Even The Thickest Book In Library Can Answer.
Not Even Footnotes Can Explain.
Nor Webster Can Define For Us.

Problems… Not Even Our Parents Can Decide For Us.

How Come One Would Spend Seventeen Years Of His/Her Life Studying About World, Science And All That…
But, Not Even One OF Those Acquired Knowledge Could Help Us Solve Things That We Might Encounter In The Future.
How Come Our Parents Would Spend Money For Our Education When They Knew Very Well That These Won’t Even Nearly Define What The True Meaning Of “Success” Is.

I Asked My Dad Once:
How Come Some People Still Ends Up Successful Even Without This So-Called “Degree” That They Need To Have In Order To Reach The Top?

And He Answered:
Maybe, It’s Pure Luck,
Or It’s Gods Will
Or They Worked Hard For It.

I Know It’s Gods Will. And I Know That If One Worked Hard They Would Surely Reach The Top. But, Was It All About Pure Luck? Or Is There Such A Thing As Luck?!

In A Jungle-Like World We Lived In. Where Lions Rules The Land, Where Whales Swims In The Big Oceans And Vultures Wait For Their Prey. It Somehow Leaves A Slim Chance For Small Fishes To Take That Big Leap, To Swim The Deepest Ocean, And To Eat The Biggest Worm.

God Design The World Like That. Hardships Begets Success. And Maybe, Being At The Right Place At The Right Time Is Pure Luck! *-*

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If Only I Can... I Would!

With all my strength. I would change my life right now!
But... I don't know how T_T
And I Don't Know WHERE to start nor WHEN to start.

All along i've thought that good things will come along my way (OUR way)...

BUT I was WRONG! I wasn't expecting it...

And I wasn't even ready for it!

IF you try and stepped on my shoes for one day...

Can you handle it? Will u survive?
So confused... I don't know what to do.
So Weak... I can't even move.
So sad... I can't smile.

How I miss things when I used to do ALL things right.
How I miss my real self.

If only I can make things right once again I would.
If only I could turn back the hands of time I would.
If only I can re-do everything I would.
I would LOVE to do it right NOW!!!
If only I had enough strength to go on... I would!!!

IF only I have one wish...

I would wish for all things in MY (OUR) life

To be as perfect as what we have dreamt of and hoped for.

I Prayed... this time HE would grant it.

Troubled Heart

"I Love You But I Have To Go. 'Cause Even The Strongest Tree Bends Even The Greatest Love Weakens. Now, I'm At The Point Where I Want To Give This All Up. So Hurt, So Confused, So Sad."

"If You Got Lost And By Chance I Wasn't There For You. You Know Your Way Back. But, If In the Process You Lose me. I'll Make Myself Be Found So You Can Easily Find Me."

"I'll Wait For You. I'll Wait For The Same Old Person I've Fallen In Love With. 'Cause You Know Very Well That The Love I have For You Is Something I Can't Just Throw Away"

"I'll Stop My World And Wait For You. So, We Can Walk That Road Together Just Like How We Used To."

"I Picked You Up, I Guide You Till You Find Your Way Back Home. But Then, You Left Me All Alone. And You Weren't There When I Needed You The Most. Why?"

"You Said You'll Always Be Here For Me. But, How Come I Only See One Set Of Footprints Beside Me."

"Do You Really Love Me?"