Pain in loving somebody

I Loved You
I should have known better than to believe in you

I can't get past my feelings no matter what I do

I loved you so much, why couldn't you see

You aren't just a want, you're a need

You kept me strong

How can you just move on

Did I really mean that little to you

Why did I even trust you

I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt

But as I let you in, you pushed me out

You turned my world upside down

Now all I can manage to do is frown

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I don't understand why love have to be this way, loving somebody and in return you end up losing yourself. you end up losing everything you wanted to have and can have.

is that what love truly is? is that loving supposed to be?

You found love and you lose yourself? was it normal to be in that situation... why can't life give both love and sanity. love without pain.

Excruciating pain that make you lose yourself. make you lose your self-worth, your identity, your YOU!!!.

If thats what love really is... well, I don't want to love anymore. I don't wanna use my heart to beat for someone who'll just take everything to me and never care for it!

It's a heartbreaking situation having to own a heart that loves only one you (ofcourse, referring to somebody I loved), who never tends to learn her lesson really well (referring to self). who took a blind eye on everything she see and so use on feeling numb on every pain she feels (referring to self).

I hate it. I hate every time my heart feels a sudden pain that I can't explain. A pain that would make my eyes shed a tear. a pain that would leave me so weak... I hate it that you never take time to understand me... I hate it.

How cruel your love can be.
a man who always makes her woman cry in sadness, in pain.
a man who never seems to understand every word her woman would utter.
a man who never hear any word she says.
How I wish, I never met you, never liked you, never loved you.
Maybe then, I wouldn't feel this pain.
Maybe then, I won't cry anymore.

I hate loving you.
I hate feeling hurt everytime you make me cry.
I hate that you don't seem to care.
I hate YOU

I hate you and I hate myself for loving you...

xoxo

kitine ='(